Uhh this is awkward..

I have a man crush..


Yes its on Saul Williams.. and its not in that I want to be with Saul Williams.. I just need to hang out with him.. Like Riley says "Im not on your nuts" but Im saying can I chill, learn, hear you speak regularly.. Dude just always comes with some next shit.. Plus I feel he's in that mode where he realized hip hop is crazy stagnant and instead of dropping back to something he was before (hmmm jay) he always takes it somewhere else.. Ive been going back and forth with someone who'd we pay 200 dollars to see live.. And granted Ive seen him before.. but Id pay a decent amount to just sit in a room of like 50 people and Saul and just see where it goes.. I dunno I just got that Niggytardust cd and Im like amazed.. I even paid the 5 for it which means something.. I cant really explain his talent to those that dont see but yea its amazing.. So my question is if you are a fan do you like the music or the poetry better? even though most times its one in the same.. do you like the music as much?..


later homes

Who it is? What it is? Where it is?

I guess the way to start this is to explain Who I am? Where I'm from? and What this is for.. I hope you enjoy.. Welcome to the mind of the forgotten..
I am MLK's dream realized, recognized, and exaggerated, having gained complete social acceptance while losing some of my self realization in the process.. I walk the line of complete social awareness and social irresponsibility as tight as one can.. I am openly called token by the masses of friends who see me as different while claiming to accept me..

I am the loner who attracts people but pushes them away once they get close
The enigma that is random..

Ive always seen myself as that weird balance of two worlds

Though I am not either I understand both sides
The permanent politician
My music ranges from Coltrane to Portishead
Tool to Big L
Im the guy in the back with the closed eyes and the headphones
The one you dont notice
But notice because I'm so unnoticeable

While planning this blog and the purpose of my thoughts on the internet I was asked what my goal was and purpose to this whole idea.. I just decided that I needed a new forum for me to get my thoughts out without the strain of having a name on it , or the idea of people reading strictly because they know me.. Most of the time I guess ill just write about life and things going on and see if anyone has been through that or think the same way as I do..

There will be different sections to this mostly dealing with my own thoughts and ish.. but I will also attempt to re educate you people with good music, art, things I find on the net and ish like that.. I hope you enjoy... by the way if you stumble across this and realize i made fun of your favorite anything... i do that.. and dont care..