Friday, April 17, 2009

Man gets shot 84 times and Lives


Man 50 cent don't have shit on this dude.. Read this article from the Huffington Post

BANGKOK — The founder of the protest movement that shut down Bangkok's airports last year was shot and wounded in a possible assassination attempt Friday, just days after troops cracked down on rioting protesters from the rival, anti-government group.

The government quickly moved to tighten security around Prime Minister Abhisit Vejjajiva, who said a state of emergency that was imposed Sunday in Bangkok would remain in place. Vehicles carrying Abhisit were attacked twice by red-shirted protesters before and during this week's riots.

Sondhi Limthongkul, a media tycoon and supporter of the current government, was in stable condition after surgery that removed "small pieces of bullet" from his skull, said Vajira Hospital director Chaiwan Charoenchoktawee. After the surgery, Sondhi was conscious and speaking and suffered no brain damage, he said.

Sondhi's People's Alliance for Democracy immediately said the attack was politically motivated, a claim that police said was under investigation.

The alliance _ known as the "yellow shirts" _ was behind protests last year to drive the allies of ousted Prime Minister Thaksin Shinawatra from power. His supporters come mainly from the middle class and educated elite of Thai society, and include royalists, academics and retired military.

Those demonstrations, which paralyzed the government for months and occupied the capital's airports for a week, only ended after court rulings removed two Thaksin-allied governments, paving the way for Abhisit's rise in December.

But the rulings set of protests by the yellow shirts' rivals _ the red shirts who are staunch supporters of Thaksin and argue Abhisit had no popular mandate to rule. Their demonstrations came to a height in Bangkok earlier this week but were called off Tuesday after facing a major military crackdown.

The red shirts, who come largely from rural areas, have expressed anger that several of their leaders were arrested over the past week, while Sondhi and his allies were never prosecuted over last year's airport seizures, which stranded some 300,000 travelers.
Abhisit said Friday that the Cabinet had decided not to revoke the emergency decree that was imposed Sunday to control rioting in the capital.

"We are concerned by the shooting obviously. We've got to restore order," Abhisit said, indicating the government was worried the attack could lead to another flare-up of violence. "We do not want this to be used to create a wider conflict."

Government spokesman Panitan Wattanayagorn told reporters that security around Abhisit would be increased and "we may not be able to disclose his plans and schedule as usual."

Sondhi, who owns the pro-government TV channel ASTV, was being driven to work before dawn Friday when at least two men in a pickup truck ambushed his car and opened fire with M-16 and AK-47 rifles, first aiming to shoot out the tires and then spraying the vehicle with bullets, said Bangkok police spokesman Suporn Pansua.

"Considering the nature of the attack and the weapons used, we believe it was carried out by people with expertise," Suporn said, adding that 84 bullet shells were found on the road. "We believe the attack was meant to take lives."

The car's windshield was riddled with bullets and windows on one side were shattered. The driver of the car was seriously wounded and an aide traveling in the car also was wounded, Suporn said.

A spokesman for Sondhi's alliance, Panthep Poapongpan, said it was "quite clear" that the attack was politically motivated but stopped short of saying who he believed was behind it. Sondhi regularly travels with bodyguards.

None of the leaders of the red-shirt movement could be immediately contacted. Aside from three in police custody, others were on the run and had their phones switched off.

Police said an investigation was under way to determine the motive and that they were looking into Sondhi's political and business enemies who could be linked to the attack.

end of article

84 times.. how gangsta is that.. if he dropped a hip hop album itd go 8x plat.. "Get Free or Don't Die Trying"..

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Hitting you with a Mixtape..

This is my homie Blaze outta Houston.. This is the type of ish that needs to drop.. He's in that second generation of Southern Emcees that are showing you not to sleep on the South.. Please believe this is his year.. Remember where you are hearing this.. I picked this up in datpiff.. but I have the album as well if people need an official d/l.. i might do that anyway

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Chic I'm AMAZING



Sometimes I just wanna play this song for some of you fools.. Cause yea I'm Amazing lol.. I love this song for real for real

She be callin my name..



An official video from the second best rapper in NJ.. We all know that Redman is.. sorry @mousebudden!.. But I love this joint.. Not for you youngin's though.. Enjoy at your own risk.. "She be calling my name".. Yea it does remind me of Poison.. but whatever.. enjoy..

Monday, April 13, 2009

Her Favorite Colo(u)r Isn't Blu


Late Pass my ass I had this since he posted it on his website but now Im presenting it to you people.. I love this jawn.. Enjoy

Here's the download link if you want it.. but we all know those don't last so here is the tracks for your pleasure..


Blu- HerfavoriteColo(u)r

Ok.. you have proved your point...

Youre not who you say you are.. You're different.. Blah blah blah...







Watch Where you Step

There may be a bat looking to knock you the F*ck out...



This has been one of those illuminating weeks and hopefully I learned some type of lesson.. But who knows.. I can never see anything..

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Quit Being a......


CLICK THE LINK TO SEE THE WHOLE COMIC THEN CLICK BACK


So I found this little webgem recently while Stumbling the recent faves of my friends and began to laugh out loud on how thats what my step mom used to say about things like that.. But recently I came to the realization that I need to take this advice more often than not.. I havent been in a fight in years so this is clearly not a post about physical violence and me punking out.. But Ive realized that my nonchalance has led to me not being as ballsy as I should be.. Ive reached a point in life where I dont care enough to take risks that may lead to failure Im not ready for... That previous sentence has been my explanation why I dont takes certain chances in : relationships, careers, money, and so on.. I recently told this to a few people in my life and they all agreed I'm just a punk..
Today after seeing Observe and Report I found myself walking through times square running to my train.. Since its the beginning of the Easter Holidays It was crowded with youngins running game and eye balling any lady walking through.. I admired them at this time, their youth, and game... One in particular really caught me off guard.. Im walking alongside a group of women who were all conversing amongst eachother when a group of these youngins cut between me and the ladies.. and one brazen one took one of the ladies by the arm and just starts spitting game.. I caught myself double taking and watching this for a second thinking how dope and stupid that was.. I just wish I was able to do such things and rock with such confidence.. Heres what my ideal spit would sound like..
Enjoy.. Later homes

Friday, April 10, 2009

I want to go through a personal revolution..



The Above Picture was my desktop picture for like six months.. Its a picture of the riots in Greece, during their recent social uprisings...

Recently I've been on this Graphic Novel kick and really into reading Alan Moore and Frank Miller.. I guess it started with my finding of Watchmen through this kid in class a few years back.. These books seem to all have a central theme of morality and the lack of it in todays world.. The idea of self social revolution is such a central theme its kind of feeding in to my "Truman Show" beliefs.. I always wanted to be a part of a violent uprising.. As read before I have this need to be apart of something special.. And with the way the world is going I would just like to be a part of when it all comes down.. And then see it as we figure how to build it back up.. And most of the time I realize I need to want that for myself.. I feel like Ive conformed a lot more than I ever wanted to.. And as I get more comfortable with myself I see the changes necessary to be able to run through all this.. I just need to complete them..

Monday, April 6, 2009

Never Thought I'd Post Something

Diddy recommended but this is pretty fresh.. I believe they are Chester French...



I hope you enjoy.. I think Ill be doing more music posts for a while and straying from my personal life as i get ish together

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Blind Dating and the Such...



So as stated before Ive been trying this whole dating thing out.. Ive tried to be about not dating and living my life.. but I always find myself running back through this whole need of being with someone... While the most prudent thing for me right now is to focus on my future and all it has to offer.. I find myself wanting more and settling for less to pursue some pipe dream of love and happiness.. Case in point I was recently going through my old myspace blogs saying goodbye to them as I prepare to delete that page and came across this list... See if you follow.. this is the blog in its entirety..

Ok stop if you read something like this from me before.. stop now.. if youre tired of the usual this is no different than the other 211 blogs.. just a new way a new thought.. a new medium... youre still here? whatever dont say I didnt warn you.. maybe youre a glutton to observe the punishment i put myself through if so youre pretty sadistic...you may not even have to read anymore..
Still here Wow.. ok here we go..
In Search of...
Female..
between the ages of 23- 25
fun
smart
cool
music enthusiast
club enthusiast
Reads a book lets say once a month (on your own)
Knows the pros of headphones
knows way around nyc
late night party head
sarcastic
strong
spontaneous
can name more than one sublime song
can name more than one tool song
can name more than one wu tang song
can tell me the elements of hip hop
can lose herself in movies
understands why the deejay is god
knows who slug is
wants to see fiji
wants to see the pyramids
wants to be at ministry of sound
knows that a good sound system can make any night
can drink and not embarrass them self
can hold one self in a conversation
can adopt to the world around them
can accept others
can understand silence
can understand nonchalance
can understand awkward
can count to ten in another language
can laugh at oneself
I swear thats all i want.. But I realize she may not exist.. Ive been trying this whole dating thing recently and find myself.. hmm looking for word.. still looking.. bored.. maybe the word is thrown off... As Im settling into life I find myself looking for someone to spend time with..(preferably noone I know.. Im just not into them) Really just have fun with and the experiences have led me to believe that solitude is an awesome plan.. I swear I dont get the female species and as much as I think I do I find myself more and more puzzled... as the days go on I realize I have more female friends than I can count... and I seem to be their voice for opinion and advice.. but yet.. I dont get it.. I dont understand anyone.. Like you dont expect everything to work.. be good or what not.. but when your cautious about your decisions.. when you take the time to choose the right ways to go about things.. you feel its a better chance.. Whatever Im kind of done again.. I need to focus on other things or something.. I just find it funny how unappealing my personality can be.. You just never want to settle.. Im sorry this is random not thought out.. kind of all over the place.. and kind of vague.. kind of shot taking.. kind of impressive.. kind of one sided... kind of done..
Tolstoy said "If you want to be happy then be happy" I say I have two words to say to you and they just might be "Fuck you"

And since this blog was a year ago you would think it may have changed.. but it hasnt.. at the time it may have been written with a certain someone in mind but now I realize that my wants have not changed but intensified while still feeling like I dont want anything..
See but my issue is that I still find myself checking out the websites, and throwing my hat in the ring because maybe one day I will find above girl and we would connect and life will be like the movies and such.. But what Ive learned is that online personas are never the same as real life personas.. and the connection people who only deal within the online realm is starting to take over what a true relationship is actually about.. recently conversating with someone about a dating experience she had.. she mentioned how she met dude online.. and he took it real slow and precise.. finally they meet after long late convos and the such and really feeling like she knew dude.. once she met him he was standoffish and kind of played his role and left.. the date wasnt bad but wasnt what she expected.. i laughed and tried to explain that people are forgetting that no matter how well you know someone or perceive to know someone online.. that first date is even more blind than being introduced by friends.. the online affairs lead to expectations that are rarely met and most often unrealistic.. most assume a relationship before they even truly know anyone.. i dont know but its all been weird and i find myself laughing at the pace.. Like even now I catch myself often thinking wow shes cool I like her.. we connect.. and all this crazy logic talk I speak gets thrown to the window.. where as I really need to learn to take it even slower and really get to know what Im getting myself into.. Recently when out on a walk around date I was talking to someone I met in these mean streets of the internet and she was explaining her advice she gave to a young co-worker about dating.. and how she said that "if shes single, looking, no kids, no real accomplishments, and so on, why are you wasting your time? something is obviously wrong" I thought about that the whole time, it kept coming back to me while we had coffee and reminded me of all the bad dating experiences Ive had... and that became my new checklist.. Because too often you are finding the ones that wont even make that checklist let alone my view of my soulmate.. I dunno it is what it is.. dont mind my relationship rambling.. im just lost in this thing we call "the search for love"

Monday, March 9, 2009

The Inevitable Was Bound to Happen..



So recently I saw this movie called "I'm Through With White Girls" through my brand new greatest invention that is Netflix Instant Access.. and found my new love.. Her name is Lia Johnson I am quite fond of her.. and for the first time in years I found someone to take the place of the beautiful Lisa Bonet in High Fidelity.. See I'm not all that into Lisa Bonet "the person" but in all honesty I was in love with the idea of this lisa bonet..
I just have this weird thing for ladies with quirks and dreads.. not only that but when they are artistic I like them even more.. I have this whole obsession with wanting to be part of something.. Especially with my ladies.. A lot of it is my self centered.. Seemingly middle child/only child syndrome.. This whole I want to effect an artists life so much they need to write about me, sing about me, or draw about me.. This whole idea of feeling appreciated and having a presence in something that clearly was before me and probably will be better after me.. I think thats a bigger part of my dream though.. The breakup manifesto.. So while watching this movie all i could imagine was that I was him and when that ended there will be a book about me, well not about me per se.. but a book written in the aftermath of me.. Self centered I know.. but whatever..

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Be My Valentine Charlie Brown



Note : This Post was written while watching said movie mid way through if it ends happy I'm pissed, and disregard..

Note : I turned the channel and forgot I wasn't recording and now don't know how it ends.. so guess what? in my mind.. ended sadly

So one of my least favorite holidays is right down the street and in today's sad economic times the amount of commercials and such have been pretty scaled back.. But you still know its coming.. There are small hints here and there.. Forums mention it, the hallmark store, and you know that kind of stuff... For the most part yearly I skip this holiday, i boycott the movies, the shows, and the music. I just don't want to give in to a day meant to make you spend money, and act like you love someone more that day more than the day before.. I just don't get it... Actually Valentines day makes me like people less.. Because this whole holiday just seems so one-sided and contrived.. Its become less about the partner but how you show your affection through gifts and what not.. but what do i get out of such actions.. higher expectations for next year, and so on... So if we date or have any intentions on such.. For now on I'm boycotting this B.S holiday... Its nothing but false expectations and broken hearts.. (i swear im not bitter)

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Questioning ones own Lockdown



Soo this week alone Ive worked a total of 90 hours.. at first I thought this was the new motivated me.. The one who wants to buy a house.. who wants to own that Audi S5.. you know the go getta.. Ive been on that grind.. grinding.. and all that.. My amount of work hours this week had my boss remark "do you have a kid somewhere in need of child support?" ... nope.. I have goals.. I have a term bill to pay.. I have things to do.. Well thats what I thought.. I thought I was being an adult and working to reach some goal.. Working to improve myself.. Or something... Then Eric calls and asks to do something Sunday and my first response.. "Yea I'll take Monday off to chill I need a break.." WtF? So I decided to evaluate my whole work thing.. and realized I have been over compensating work for my loss of friends and this perceived slight I feel... Honestly.. Im not sure what happened.. I just know its been almost a week without talking to the two people I talked to more than anyone else and Ive found myself still questioning myself and those decisions.. But at the same time Ive taken advice I received and began to re evaluate my own thoughts and perceptions on this whole dynamic.. See a part of me sees me falling down this rabbit hole of self doubt.. and lack of self confidence.. thinking maybe I just wasnt good enough.. not established enough.. not there yet.. Standing in my house the other day talking to myself as i washed dishes and wondered aloud "what nerve I have to think that I should have what I want.. like i deserve it.." I see it in my reemergence of the health nut me.. the one who wonders how many credits I have left.. or when I will make more money.. or be better at games or some shit.. This where I am now feeling like I was rejected.. Which I guess in essence I was.. but what do I call what I did.. and also can one be rejected while explaining he was running away from something.. see the reason I run from most isnt out of fear of happiness as I once put it.. but out of fear of disappointment.. fear of not being good enough.. but like i said taking time to reflect and grow.. changing me to a better me.. so i can love you better.. now that I said that aloud it sounds worse than just running.. whatever.. wwjd?.. hed say "Lets Get It!" which really doesnt help.. so i guess i chose the Kanye route...

- Kanye West Lyrics

Sunday, January 4, 2009

808's and Heartbreak..

If you wouldve asked me a year ago if i would be writing a blog in support of Kanye's 808's and Heartbreak album.. Id tell you you was crazy.. If you would have told me when I first got the album and listened to it twice that Id be coming back to it once a day almost, while telling myself I really like the concept.. Id tell you you lost your ever loving mind.. But over the last two weeks Ive listened to it like it was the Qoran.. Taking it in and memorizing it to become a hafez in it.. I love this album.. at least i keep telling myself i do.. When the concept first hit, I knew I would like the concept but couldnt buy into him singing it.. which I still cant.. but something else happened.. I find myself again alone.. not heartbroken.. but alone.. in the matter of three days Ive seemed to lose the two closest people to me.. to uncontrollable reasons.. the crazy thing is as far apart each person is to the next.. the reasons mirror each other.. friendships that were casualties of heartbreak.. Its so crazy though.. Because this isnt even three days into the new year and I find myself more alone today then i felt almost all of last year.. and its only going to get worse.. last year when I went through a similar issue my attention and thoughts were already being stolen by the other party in ways that made me feel whole again, so when I got back one of my closest confidants pre summer it felt that everything else was just a bonus.. the issue as always is that my inability to resolve anything and avoid confrontation has led to a re-up of the same stupid issues and thoughts.. so now im friendless with no end in sight.. this is without mention of the friends im losing to relationships, age, distance, and personal reflection on said friendships.. Is this part of getting old? or is there something more at play?.. Is this what those people who lived their mid twenties always refuse to tell you.. how sucky those years actually are.. how the same types of friendships you had in highschool and college fall by the waste side as you get older... how being "friends" usually means more for someone and not as much for the other.. I remember last year I questioned someones friendship with me because of her ability to walk away for her own sanity and now i see myself doing it while she does it again and now not only does one question her friendship but he questions his own.. and his fairness to her knowing what she was going through.. i dont even know why i posted this here and probably will regret this in the morning but for now.. Welcome to Heartbreak...... (kinda)