Myspace Cross Post.. Fuck a Holiday

Fuck a Valentine's Day.. Well not really I just thought that would get some attention.. I know its been a while but Ive been concentrating on the other site and doing life things.. By the way please check GOD LOVES UGLY I think its a pretty dope site and if you read this you may also.. Life has been pretty weird lately but good i feel like things have been working in my favor and turning around for me... Ive moved out of the roommate situation into my own situation and eventhough my landlord is shady my apartment is pretty dope.. My commute is less than my walk to the train station used to be and my neighborhood is dope.. It always smells like Portugese food... Ive stopped worrying about the past and have been concentrating on the future making plans to fulfill the dreams I had when I was younger while letting go of the childish fantasies and delusions that everything will work out the way I always thought it would.. See I think Ive entered my time of growth... That period in life where you start to shed the shit that held you back as a youth.. Ive stopped caring about the things I cant control or the people I cant touch bases with.. Its been rough trying to realize that some times you need to just let go but I guess you learn that.. Also my work situation is kind of crazy now.. I worked in the industry of music and realized quickly I dont belong there.. Not saying I couldnt make it there because I am currently doing quite well.. its just I realized aside from a few its the shadiest place Ive ever been.. With the shadiest people that ever existed.. Every one at some point is taking advantage of someone else and usually the ones with the talent end up getting the shortest end of the stick.. I remember thinking that the current downtrend in music is the artist fault for lack of creativity or lack of drive but I realized that the true artist have given up on this thing we call hip hop.. They have no chance of survival and to tell the truth I hope it crashes and burns.. That will be the only way they can revamp it.. Sometimes they say the cream rises to the top but in this case the cream is stomped and drained... Thats not even the major issue Ive encountered the major one is the fact that people cant leave the spotlight or leave their place when the light goes out.. You cant imagine the amount of "independents" hanging on based on the fact that they know someone famous or were down with some click... These people are usurping everything that is holy from music and continue to rob you of what we like to call artistry.. But at least there is an end in sight through the connections or whatever you want to call it I made at work I was offered an opportunity to learn from the best on Wall St. They are sponsoring me and putting me through the classes to help me along the way but its interesting how life works.. one day you are hoping for that change and the next day that change is there.. Ive never had the best of luck but it seems like time is changing.. Which brings me to my opening statement as much as things change a lot stays the same or worsens my mood for these holidays have become more reluctant to particapate and my need of someone to spend this ish with actually leads me to feel sick.. The person whos is my Valentine I was the last option.. (ehh yea i know) Im not offended but I realized that I didnt even know it was Valentines day until she called me complaining of not having one.. The ironic part is I asked her because she was the most logical choice.. Shes the only person I think I like enough to buy some bullshit for.. ( I probably sound horrible but realize its 514am and I have work at 12pm until tomorrow at this time so Im a little peeved Im awake..) Well anyway in closing I have some reccomendations for you.. Go see "There Will Be Blood" and "Persepolis".. saw the first one and was in awe of how awesome it was and how much it embodies American Greed and Capitalism and the second one Im looking for a theatre to see it this weekend being its one of my favorite books and something people who have any view on Iranians should see.. Dont believe what the media force feeds you... Do some research.. If at the end of this month in this leap year you are free on the 29th come to the showcase at Raprehersal in Philly... and check out some music.. I love Yesterdays String Quartet and Blu gotta run my boss is here... later homes... oh yea fuck a myspace.. fuck afacebook.. go outside..