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Biggie and Mick Boogie!!!!!!!!!!!

To Me this was the best tribute album.. Boogie and Terry Urban's "Unbelievable"

One of my new Favorite songs...

This song is ill.. I imagine it playing when Im at work sometimes and then I play it...

I also like this song..

It reminds me of Poison

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Truck Bearing Kibble

Truck Bearing Kibble

Antonio Fernandez Astrophotography

Antonio Fernandez Astrophotography

Are you fucking my lady?

Haha probably... I tend to do that sometimes...

I guess Im addicted

This video is cool but kind of corny though... but more so the song is just .. yea..

A Fucking Complex.. Seriously?

I think Im starting to get a complex.. Well not one or two but maybe three... It all has to do with Hip Hop, Work, and Social Status.. See working in hip hop and entertainment you realize what money really is and looks like... See people dont mind flaunting it and showing that they have it.. Not only that most of the money I see is the younger crowd the ones who are really spending it... The colors I see, Patterns, and floss, its ridiculous.. And then there is me in the corner dressed in the same thing I wore last week working 80 hours a week and hoping the rip in my jeans and hoodie don't expand.. Seeing kids like Rich Hill and some dude Spot, Watching people your age with money and shit with things you never imagined.. Like actually seeing people with body guards and butlers.. Its hard to adjust.. Also you begin to feel your position and your place.. You begin to realize how far you really have to go in the world just to touch certain things.. Its gotten bad man.. See I grew up in NYC Shaolin to be exact and style was never a big thing we rocked jeans hoodies and vests.. timbs and lumberjacks.. We werent dirty but this color shit wasnt for us most of the people I know still dont do this whole thing so imagine my surprise as I'm walking down 5th ave and I catch myself at Lacoste buying an 85 dollar shirt thats some sky blue.. I feel like I lost my mind.. And I know this whole 80's baby thing has something to do with it but I feel as if that generation skipped me by.. I really dont get this style trend thats big now.. Nor do I understand where culture is going.. Sometimes I embrace this hipster movement but at other times I catch myself hoping that Duck Down blows again.. Or hoping that people even like Lupe disappear.. I guess in the end it all comes down to economics.. I grew up in a home where we couldnt afford this shit and was taught it was a waste of money when there was so much other shit to do with money.. We didnt spend 100 dollars on sneakers in a year let alone on a pair.. and we got clothes twice maybe three times per year.. School Clothes, Easter Clothes, and Christmas as we got older and wanted that instead of toys and games... We were taught to shop economically like more hoodies and long sleeve shirts than jeans.. Two pairs of sneakers a year a spring/summer white shoe, and a fall/winter black shoe... For some reason these lessons stuck with me.. I remember the first pair of sneakers I bought for over a hundred dollars a pair of flights like four years ago.. and believe me I still own them shits.. They are in my work locker now for when I go to the gym after work.. But I catch myself self conscious about my attire, about my frugal idea of what something should cost, and how much I am willing to spend on each.. Ive begun to understand the differences in fabrics, textures, and quality, but all that shit still only seems like a cut above what you can get at any retailer.. I dunno man maybe it jealousy, envy, want, or longing for that thing you wanted since being a child.. Never had a pair of Jordans so now when I see them I want to buy them but at the same time I remember that two kicks for 89 is a better deal.. This leads me to believe I will always be a social outcast, the one who doesnt make it because he'd rather go to Vegas then buy some new jeans... But I catch myself daily looking in the boutiques on the way to work waking in and browsing before running out in a fit of common sense.. I dunno maybe Im just not that guy maybe I wasnt meant to be this way.. I think this is what separates me from most in my generation.. Whereas I like Lupe I'd prefer Doom.. Im more of a backpacker.. Actually I never am without it, or my headphones, or my hoodie.. I dunno this is no disrespect to the flamboyant 80s babies out there, "The Cool Crowd".. I just realized I am a product of my borough, my parents, my economic situation.. If you remember the 90's WuTang flossed but not like the other boroughs we were the gritty poor borough..
later homes.. On My Eric Benet Shit

Craigs List is for the Devil

"Pull over theres a reason why my souls unsound... Its you"
Garden Grove by Sublime

You ever meet someone bad for you? probably so bad it kind of makes you feel good to be around them.. As you get closer you know that the probability of success or happiness dwindles but it makes you want them that much more.. Because it seems like the reward would be so much greater if success was met... If you caught that lightning in bottle and had one of those long crazy happy relationships.. I think thats what most people expect... As humans we crave that companionship.. But as selfish beings we are ok with searching for that perfect partner.. that perfect situation.. in the end most settle for the closest to it.. sometimes people find it.. but whatever moot points.. It just seems that in my life im drawn to the ones that are far from right or conventional..
This is just my thoughts on the day...



Saul Williams - Surrender

"Well, there're two ways I can say this. And one would be: fuck you! And there're no two ways around it, because one would be untrue. Because I love everything about you. But I don't want to be around you. If you control my heart will you control my brain? If I give in to you, will it still feel the same? 'Cause I want nothing more than to be here with you. If you fulfill my dreams, will that fulfill you too? I need a second. I need a second to think. Now, the other way to play this would be mellow, light, and, cool. Poetry and meditation. Higher ground and higher truth. Because I love everything about you. But I use everything to doubt you. If you control my heart will you control my brain? If I give in to you, will it still feel the same? 'Cause I want nothing more that to be here with you. If you fulfill my dreams, will that fulfill you too? I need a second. I need a second to think. I found the spot where truth echoes and know each beauty mark by heart. But I just can't keep her still enough to render perfect art. 'Cause the truth is ever changing and although she loves my touch, I've had my way, but I when I pray, she kisses back too much. And it's hard to feel real gangster when you're always getting kissed. But you jump at every pucker, 'cause your fear of getting dissed. I try not to fight the parts of me that want to kiss her back. Egos should be illegal. Mine just don't know how to act. He tells me I don't need her. I should walk this path alone. She's make believe. She's up my sleeve. I'd do better with a clone. But could it be? It seems to me that she's my other half. My inner-tarzan monkey girl, raised mainly by giraffes. And besides she makes me laugh. 'Cause deep down I think she's stupid. But deeper down, I'm just a clown starting bar room brawls with cupid, like, "Fuck that naked baby angel, yo! And gimme 2 more buttery nipples". And God just re-invents herself as ice-cubes in my ripple. "

I love this mofoking song for real

No Greater Love

What Im searching for in 08.. Something that will make me think of this song...

As People Ask Why I no longer chase love.. Why I choose my life of solitude.. Its Because I wish for shit like this... And honestly i dont remember being up at 5 just to get something off my chest.. My new Love song.. My new hope for 08.. haha

Do You Love Hip Hop?

As I ventured into the world of "Rap" "Hip Hop" or whatever you want to call it.. I wasnt naive nor did I have some illusion of automatic grandeur.. Ive grown up around it.. I studied it.. I lived it.. I always knew the industry was shady.. Tribe told me that.. I always knew the money wasnt forever.. Hammer told me that so did almost every other rapper.. But something I learned for myself was that the art as pop culture was dying.. Like any trend.. People get tired of the same shit over and over and end up moving on.. I never thought that hip hop was dead.. as Nas proclaimed.. but I did believe that we were beginning to reap what we sow.. People stopped caring about buying albums because they were always disappointed.. And when you can get something for free you arent as disappointed or mad about the purchase.. You really dont care.. You accept what you get and most of the time cherish it more because it was like a gift.. I remember when I first started downloading music it was mainly obscure singles that I loved and wanted for mixtapes.. and secret pleasure songs that I could never buy the album but secretly loved the songs.. case in point "Whats Your Fantasy" by Ludacris.. See I figured that I wasnt hurting the industry because I continued to buy artists that I loved music and continued to support the cause of "Real Hip Hop".. As time progressed I realized that I wasnt making a difference nor did it matter What I did.. Certain shit was selling despite how good it was or not.. Some things were selling based on the artist name and other shit was selling just based on I dunno.. I still dont understand how Country Grammar sold so much or why the St Lunatics are famous.. nor do I get the bling era of hip hop.. Where you had people say "they dont write rhymes they write checks".. But then I began to notice even the shit I loved began to fall off Tical 2001 or whatever was trash.. Nas everything after It was Written until Stillmatic.. I actually pretend those years dont exist.. I realized that as time went on the music became stale.. and everything new was overly catchy and just extremely stupid.. It was like the artists forgot that people had brains and loved hip hop more for the lyrics and beats than anything else.. No one cared about a hook or the nostalgia of a video game sample.. We loved Ready to Die because it was sample driven but in a way where you couldnt believe Biggie was rapping over Juicy Fruit.. But more so about what he was saying is what made us love it and want more of it.. As time progressed we seemed to stop caring.. We'd rather there be a back story to the song rather than the song tell a story.. And now we wonder where hip hop went.. We wonder why sales have dropped 21% in two years.. Why our "Major Stars" are doing Project Pat numbers and everything new is doing non existent numbers.. Cause People aint saying shit.. and the perception was always the ones who are saying something wont sell.. but how is it Talib Kweli sold Fifty Numbers as did Common.. Or, As much as this hurts to say this, Kanye outsold them all.. We are searching for growth for something different.. Its like this whole 80s movement "We want that old thing back.." But as we continue to blame the internet and the labels and economics.. We watch soljah boy sell 800,000 and Lupe push 150,000.. and we wonder where our souls went.. The NY Times did a great article thats been passed around to different people and commented on at length.. but to me this only tells half the story our culture and the path its on is telling the rest.. Because one last question.. Why were and are mixtapes never blamed for the death of hip hop? even though they essentially do what most downloaders do.. Why are they accepted as part of the culture rather than the demise? In my opinion.. Because we are a culture of Word of Mouth.. We like what everyone else likes.. We are a culture of belief.. We believe in new things and new artists.. The mixtape has always been that place to find it.. as the internet has been for most of this new generation.. and like the mixtape most people usually download their favorite ish and put it on their own playlist because everything else is wack from said album.. Just an observation I made when going through the old tapes...