College Musings...

I blame the tone of this blog on Radiohead.. a long morning on the treadmill.. and not sleeping for more than an hour in 24.. (you've been warned).. Lets start with a song..


So you thought I would lead with something like "Creep" or something of that nature but no.. This song makes perfect sense for the meaning of this blog.. Lets see if you can keep up.. This morning while taking the Express bus across campus I found myself listening to Radiohead.. Which isnt new since I decided I wanted to hear their whole catalog this morning.. Ive been back into this whole running thing and when I run I listen to harder and faster music.. Todays choice was Nirvana - In Utero.. So as I was leaving the gym I needed something to relax me and made the mistake of choosing this Radiohead Catalog.. Its not that it isnt good or relaxing.. The issue is.. Its kind of depressing.. Well anyway.. I was on the bus and watched as a group of students started discussing class and their sororities/frats and the different events of the weekend.. I watched with much interest because they were all non-traditional students like myself and yet still find themselves immersed in this college lifestyle.. I found myself feeling even more gloomy than the overcast that I was staring out into.. Dont get me wrong I dont find myself to be frat material but I feel like Im missing the point of college.. I feel like my ability to make friends has diminished and I feel myself talking less everyday.. See most people think you learn everything in the classroom while at school but in my humble opinion that is not true.. The most valuable lessons seem to be learned with your peers.. The discussions, The experiences, The stories.. And yet here I am looking at a graduation date with none of that to show for this long and stressful journey.. Ive made a few friends along the way but I may end up knowing two of the five for the rest of my life.. I just feel like this all may have been the biggest waste of time and money.. But then again I realize that I chose this lifestyle and for the most part caused this whole anti social movement.. It may have been this past weekend but I feel like Im growing in weird directions.. and its not really helpful.. Whatever as Thom Yorke would say.. "I do it to myself.."