The Truman Show Effect

When I was younger, I mean real young, I thought the world was controlled by my mind, and everything I encountered was because my mind made it so, I even compared the scene in boyz in the hood where Angela Basset is leaving Trey with his pops to my own mothers reasons when I was going through a similar thing at a similar time.. Even though her reasons werent as moral I still thought those were her reasons for doing such.. This continued into almost adulthood as I learned more my thoughts expanded past camera in the mirror.. television leading me on.. or even music.. I truly thought my mind controlled the world.. The Matrix and Philosophy classes did that to me.. I was still skeptical though.. Leading to trips around just to make sure it existed and there was no dome to hold me in.. But there are still times when it comes back to the forefront.. times when I'm hoping things wont happen.. happen, like hoping someone wouldnt act in a way that is normal to their character because then that would mean they acted in a way beneficial to my own happiness, but as people continue to disappoint i wonder if its my mind telling me to navigate the land mines that are people... because i seem to attract the crazies, and need help deciphering who is and isnt..