Ok maybe im socially inept... but how do you express those things.. how do you say hey im cool.. youre cool... lets have babies.. ok maybe not.. this isnt about anyone but i know i think this all the time.. id rather pretend than for it to exist because once it exists.. sad blogs.. angry blogs.. and words like "unavailable".. "distant".. "rejected".. "displaced".. "alone".. "annoyed".. "secretive".. "different".. and what not starts to pop up.. so yea im good... Update : So after writing this blog I got a really weird text from someone from the spring... It was weird because things didnt end well, go well, or last long, actually it was destructive from the get.. and yet I get the whole "I love you and miss you text" and I fall directly into it... until the conversations progress and things start to come back.. and then I remember the angry blogs, the sad poetry, the long lists of whats wrong and right, the trips out of state, the leaving of my phone on a bus in vegas because I was tired of fighting, answering, and caring... I understood the dynamic and understood why it worked when it worked.. and maybe you were right I wasnt ready for what you wanted... I wasnt really ready to dedicate myself 100% to a cause I didnt believe in.. but when you ask me if Im ready now and I say yes.. dont assume youre the cause... something did happen.. I have grown.. and with growth came clairvoyance "THAT GIRL IS POISON.."
The sad part is we still entertain each others calls and what not.. anyway here goes a video to go with that pic...
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