Life Decisions

Three posts in three days this is like a record for me this past year.. Anyway.. So Ive been reading another blog lately keeping up with it daily and looking to see the similarities between mine and hers while also looking for inspiration on topics to write about.. Today she wrote about life and the process of growing up and becoming an adult.. I was always fascinated by the idea that we are becoming adults in our early to mid twenties.. When i was younger I thought Id have it all figured out by now... I had a good example and a bad one all rolled up into one.. I idolized my sister and brother in laws situation thinking that I should be able to accomplish what they have in the same strides and more since the younger generation should always do it better.. See they were married at 21 and had a house not long after.. They have two kids and have already moved into their new residence and my sister just turned early 30's.. To me that set me on some trajectory that may be unattainable.. Maybe it was my maturity level at that time or maybe I just made the wrong decisions but I am just seeing my life come together and starting to find my way through it.. My decisions and thought process have begun to be more concrete while having more of a life plan behind them.. This became even more evident this weekend as talking to people around me.. Well my bro in law and his neighbor and two of my bosses I made a decision of what to do when I get out of school.. For the first time a goal is attainable and its not something I really am excited about but more so a means to a goal that I am excited about.. Its weird though because as much as Ive talked about this goal in this post I refuse to discuss it outside of that circle.. I think in some ways I am nervous.. and other ways Im embarrassed that I may not complete it or that better options may present themselves.. But as of now this is what Im working towards full speed.. so all those wondering what Im doing for the first time I have something that Im confident is a means to an end.. later homes.. and btw.. a finale..